MindfullyArtistic

if people have opinions about the artwork I post on here...

its not like anyone reads my posts or journals. so why I am even writing one is beyond me.

but here I go anyway. at least I'll feel better in the end. I hope.

I'll think a piece is particularly good, and it will get a few stars, but no more than any other piece of work I've posted. or I'll post just a random its okay piece and it will get lots of stars, and then I'll just do some random daily challenge and it will get lots of stars, or no stars and a random deviant who just wants to be a deviant.

honestly I see no rhyme or reason to anything. there is no pattern. nothing to give me the least little hint of "oh yes, I should post more of this... or more of that."

I don't have time to do research on daily challenges. point blank.

I have no inclination to do research on daily challenges. point blank.

I do research on things I love. things that are important to my life. important to the lives of my family, my friends.

I do artwork because it makes me happy, not because it makes some random deviant happy.

of course, if you wanted to pay me, that's another story. I'll create you a lovely piece... any sort of alcohol ink painting you'd like if you'd pay me. I don't cost an arm and a leg either.

and if you'd rather have a photoshoot, I can do that too! I'm an educated photographer, and can take any sort of photos you'd like~

I also do acrylic and oil paintings, I sew and can make everything from dresses, pants, blouses to dress suits, costumes, baby and children's clothing to wedding gowns all the way to pajamas, domestic items such as curtains and bedding... even doggy things!

also I'm also a great cook~ everything from vegan meals to steak and potatoes... wedding cakes, birthday cakes and cupcakes... casseroles for the family of eight, or a romantic dinner for two, I've done it all... if you'd like to pay me, or we could do a trade...

I do a lot... a lot of what keeps me going, and makes me happy...

So why is it these few deviants who think I should sit here and research all my ai daily challenges~ when quite honestly when I posted them had so many variations of their topic at the time I did them~ bother me so much?

perhaps because I'm a freaking people pleaser. and I hate it. I don't know one deviant from another on here. I have never met another deviant, probably never will. and yet, here I am trying to please you all like my paycheck depends on it.

sigh.

you see where I am at? a bit confused as to where I go with all this? as if these few people have the right to affect me like this at all?

or perhaps the thing is, I shouldn't be giving them the right to have this affect.

I made a post a few weeks back looking for friends in what will be my new hometown area of Pensacola. I had the hopes of making a few new fiends as well as networking in the arts fields... but oddly I ended up with a crazy star crossed lover boys... I'm not even kidding...

The first case~ I'll call him Casey. Now, Casey started out nice: he's from Texas. works full time, arts fields, travels, lives in the right area, my age, etc etc... and something there made it so we sort of hit it off, he was easy to talk to and he had a dog too which was a plus as I do, so we'd be able to meet up at a dog park every so often!

The second case~ let's call him Ben. He's from Cali. works full time in music industry, travels, lives in Peridido Key, a bit older etc has a couple dogs...

Third and final~ We'll call him Jefferey~ From Florida, lives outside of Pensacola, quite a ways out, but still nice to know someone around there, we hit it off as friends, we both have dogs... but for me it was awkward from the beginning.

What do these cases all have in common? All three men were or had to be fallen in love with me immediately because they considered me to be a "pretty woman" and I must have men "falling at my feet." The third one I swear probably drooled whenever he heard from me.

Falling at my feet..... Well.... you must have a really nice career, a vehicle (make that two, I want one too!) Do you have a really nice house for me and my current dog, and multiple future dogs to move into? Do you shower daily? Brush your teeth daily? Keep your face clean of hair, your hair neatly trimmed? What about your nails?? And while we are here... there is more than face value you know....

I don't understand how any of the three thought they'd even get with me they way they behaved. I don't want to hear about dick sizes. it's not what you have you know.

I realize dA has changed and so many on here now are wanting a date, and wanting a nude photo, but I've been upfront that I'm not seeking those things. I'm also upfront with the fact that I'm not coming to florida with a boyfriend, nor am I wanting one. in fact I'm leaving an on-again-off-again boyfriend here in New York.... why anyone would just from one relationship to another is beyond me.

I don't know... my two sense....

and since I can't figure out how to block him, if anyone wants his name, let me know.... and "Jefferey" if you are out there.... go to therapy..

Today I reached 100 watchers!! I'm so super excited! I'm in the midst of pulling together alcohol ink abstracts to load up. I am hoping over the weekend I'll have lots to share with *all* of my lovely followers! 💞

In under two hours the clock will strike midnight here in New York, and another year will have passed... I am not where I thought I would be at this stage of my life. I can't believe how fast it feels like the years are going by! Is it my age? I turn the big 5-0 this May, which means my daughter turns 30, and my son will be 25 this year. Where oh where has the time gone!?

I certainly don't *feel* 50 years old. I have a life style that allows me to sleep in every day, stay up late every night... I can eat what I want, nap when I want, do what I want on any given day (or night for that matter). I have friends far and wide on the internet, but only a couple close to by that I see on a regular basis.

I am very much single, having separated from my wife years ago, and from my most recent boyfriend not so long ago. Don't feel sorry for me! I'm much happier on my own! I have to admit, I'm not totally on my own, I have had a medical service dog, Fyona for almost 9 years. We've had a great time together, healthy ones too! Once the cold air started to come in with the change of the seasons, and the flurries started to fly, the arthritis set in, and she began having some trouble with her hips and back legs, and just over the past couple of weeks she started having issues with her neck and front legs as well. Goldendoodles have a life expectancy of 10-15 years, and though I have done everything I can to keep her moving, in shape, eating the right foods, and healthy overall, she has allergies to a lot of foods, and to the natural world we life in, it has been a rough life for her. She's nearing the end of her life, and it is one of the things I'm going to have to learn to accept, though I am not ready to face it... Her name was Puppy until she was nearly 17 weeks old, so she still responds to it, and I still often call her Puppy, and think of her as just the little 10 week puppy I picked up all those many years ago!

As I write this, she is laying by my side, worn out from the day's events. We will be in bed sound asleep before the clock strikes twelve and the Gregorian New Year is brought in by the Eastern Coast.

We will wake up to January 1, 2024; a year of fresh ideas, new lists of things to do, of networks to be made, and of new beginnings!

If by chance you made it this far, Fyona and I wish you the very best in 2024! *kiss*